Around 1:00, an hour later than scheduled, the surgical team came to get him and he was such a good boy. The anesthesiologist (who happens to be a fellow Kansan- hooray!) turned a Tom Petty music video on his phone and Lincoln happily went to him. It's amazing what old Tom can do! When they started walking off Lincoln turned to us and reached. We could hear him start to cry when they walked around the corner. That was the hardest part. I can't even think about the expression on his little face without crying all over again. Surprisingly, I feel very peaceful and relaxed now. I know this is all the prayers working.
Every hour the nurse is calling and updating us on his progress. So far he is doing perfect. Logan made the mistake of asking the surgeon how exactly they fix the ridge. .. he explained to us that they actually remove the front part of the skull from his head, reshape it and then put it back. They also have to readjust his eyes. No baby should have to go through this!!!! We are expecting him to be in surgery until around 6:00 or 7:00 tonight. After that we will not be able to see him for another hour. Hopefully we will be by his side when he wakes up although we can't hold him. I am praying that when we see him we will be strong. It is going to be hard to see him with lines, bandages, a drain in his little head and sadly no more hair. They say the swelling is not very bad at first but in the next day or two it will be pretty scary. We are not expecting him to be able to open his eyes for a few days but I would love it if he surprised us and could open them tomorrow!
Today is our two year wedding anniversary. This time two years ago the wedding celebration was in full swing. When you say your vows you just have no idea what life is going to throw at you. At the same time, you have no idea how much you are going to love your kids. It seems unreal to us that we didn't know Lincoln then. It feels like he has always been a part of our lives.
The calls and messages we have received from friends and family today are so amazing. I wish I could respond to everyone but please know how much we appreciate the love and support.
When I was little I remember saying the Guardian Angel prayer with my mom before bed. I would always imagine what my guardian angel looked like. . pink wings, a sparkly dress and of course blonde hair. Today in the holding room I said the prayer to Lincoln. I hope his guardian angel is the strongest dude around who has lots of buff friends who can come help him out! I can picture him now in the operating room standing over my sleeping baby letting him know everything is going to be okay. I have to believe this because I can't be there to comfort him.
|With mom and dad in the waiting room before surgery.|